#3

I feel like I just might never learn how to achieve the perfect balance of love and impassivity when resolving an issue.

To show love but also stand up for myself, not be a doormat. Is that even what I'm supposed to do? Am I supposed to be more loving to the point that I am a doormat? Not necessarily manipulated but just incredibly passive.

I've never been passive. I've always been hot tempered, I always want justice in the end.

But justice as a Christian might require some passivity. I don't think I really like that, but I think it's the truth. I don't really know, actually, I'm just taking a stab at it.

This is making my brain hurt.