#4

After my last breakup at the beginning of August, I swore to my good friend that I would take a 6 month break from dating.

Approximately 1 1/2 months down, 4 1/2 left to go. (not like I'm keeping track or anything...)

At first I wasn't so sure, even though it is my self-proclaimed "off season"... The only times I've dated people have been between about the months of Feb/March to June/July/August(ish). So even though according to my track record, I'm safe and off the hook, I was still worried that for some reason, I might find myself in a situation where I'm just really wanting to get out of the oath I took.

And so far, I've been okay! No passionate yearnings, or serious wishing that I wasn't being held accountable to stay single. I'm surviving! Even though every now and again I think it would be awful nice to have someone to go out with, I stop and remember... this so-called "boy break" is giving me the time to focus on what I should be focusing on, and learning more about God and myself and how I should be living, rather than which guy I should be trying to live for instead.

It's giving me an opportunity to make my own decisions and realize more of what I am made to do, realize what I want and need, and realize just who exactly I should turn to when times get tough and lonely... a guy isn't going to solve those problems.

And thanks to last week's RUF, I really got to focus on the fact that yes, GOD took me out of my last relationship not to bring me into sadness, but to call me to Himself! I mean, it does still make me sad, because I was very close with my last boyfriend and was able to tell him anything, but he wasn't the one, and God knew that before we even happened. And He brought me out and away from that to show Himself to me... my vision was clouded over, and God provided a way out and the concept of the "boy break" so that I can grow closer to Him.

Thank you God for your love shown to me in so many ways!